"This is not what we had in mind"

This is not what we had in mind

When we said adulthood

We meant understanding things
completely
wholly

Bored
I snap my gum at my desk
Listening to football talk and thinking about
2006

Is it just me
or is there nothing good on TV

Anymore

Or it could be my attention span.
It is shrinking.disproportionately decreasing

Tired

I cherish moments with loved ones

Giggling, talking, praying. Wondering about
2021

But only for a second or two
Because there are dishes to be done
Bills to pay

Events to attend

Sleep

Travel

Negotiate

Shake hands

and Netflix and Phones and praying and loving and hugging and flossing and emailing and typing and watching and cleaning and eating and nodding and subways and cars and highways and bridges and frustrations and comedies and looking and waiting in line and reading the paper

But only for a second
because i don't
r e a l l y
want to understanding everything

anymore.